Sep 07, 2016
I didn’t come to know anything about Jesus until I was around 32 years old, and then I fell deeply in love with him – as an man who walked this earth over 2000 years ago, as the Christ of my own mind, as an example, demonstration, guide and friend on to how TO LOVE and how TO LIVE.
When I was 32, I wanted to learn everything I could about Jesus. My love and interest for Jesus came about because I had A Course in Miracles for about 10 years (and didn’t have a clue about what is was saying – event though I had tried reading it – I didn’t understand a word it said) and one day someone said to me: Jesus, the same guy who walked the earth 2000 years ago, is the author of A Course in Miracles.
My friend said:
“Jesus – the “I AM” of him – never died. The body was laid down, but Jesus, the Spirit, the Life, the Love, the Light, the Mind of God that he is, never died.
“So the mind that was in Jesus was able to come through Helen Schucman in the 1960’s and give a message that we now can all access through this book called A Course in Miracles. He was able to insert a message of love into time and space, into the world. And now you are holding it in your hands.”
He told me, “From now on, read A Course in Miracles as if its a love letter from Jesus to you directly. Read it as if it’s a set of instructions, that is specifically for you. Do what it says.”
That was beginning of a whole new chapter in my life!
Suddenly A Course in Miracles made perfect sense! I understood every single word!
And then my curiosity and interest for Jesus began. I bought my first bible. I bought books on the metaphysics of the bible stories.
And after that, I began to “experiment” and “test” having a relationship with Jesus.
It felt weird at first – having a relationship and friendship with Jesus – because I couldn’t see him.
I could talk with him, but I felt like he wasn’t talking back. If he was, I was in doubt about if what I was hearing was really him or just my own thoughts making up what I wanted to hear. It was both an exciting and confusing time because it went against everything I had believed up to that point.
But I started to notice that when I acknowledged Jesus’ Presence in my life, everything was easy.
A Course in Miracles says an astonishing awesome thing that I know is true:
“The Holy Spirit is described throughout the course as giving us the answer to the separation and bringing the plan of the Atonement to us, establishing our particular part in it and showing us exactly what it is. He has established Jesus as the leader in carrying out His plan since he was the first to complete his own part perfectly. All power in Heaven and earth is therefore given him and he will share it with you when you have completed yours.” -A Course in Miracles
JESUS WILL SHARE HIS POWER WITH ME WHEN I HAVE COMPLETED MY PART !!!!!!!!
After this, all my dedicated and focus went to finding out what my part is, so that I could complete it.
It meant I needed to start communicating with the Holy Spirit – which was another odd and awkward turning point for me, but I was willing to experiment with this idea.
I learned to listen.
I was willing to take time in my day to simply be quiet and acknowledge there was a Presence and Power with me, as me.
I didn’t know what the hell I was doing and I still don’t!
But I do know this: Now that I live my life knowing that Jesus Christ is with me (not the religious Jesus, but the Jesus that I have come to know directly and personally through my own first-hand experience of establishing a relationship and friendship with him), all things are new.
Suffering fell away. Addiction fell away. Lack disappeared.
The more that I was available to know the nature of God, the more I came to know myself as loved, lovable, protected and safe.
I began to see and know that all disease is nothing more than a sense of unworthiness and a belief in separation. It’s just a belief!
All the time I was totally loved and lovable and never alone. I was believing in something that wasn’t even true! It’s incredible to me now that I spent so much of my life filled with doubt and sadness, feeling utterly alone – because now I know that I suffered needlessly.
The whole time the Presence of God was with me, as the Love I am.
The more I held this truth in my mind and heart, the more things changed.
Now I don’t do anything without acknowledging Jesus.
I ask about everything, before I do it.
I still sometimes forget to ask and then it’s pretty funny to see how night-vs-day my experience is!
When I try to do things alone, it’s a struggle.
When I do things with Jesus and I remember to ask for direction and guidance, it’s easy.
I learned all this through trial and error and experimentation. I began to trust in the invisible, which I have never seen with the body’s eyes but which I know with absolutely certainty is HERE WITH ME.
Christ is not separate, but the very Being of what I am.
What an astonishing realization!
Jesus will share his power with you when you have completed your part.
This is the reason you will do “greater things” than Jesus did – because he worked alone – and we do greater things because now this power is shared.
All my love,