Welcome.

Here is my story, the long version: 

The experience of being sick with chronic pain and physical symptoms is the best thing that ever happened to me. Because it set me on a journey of awakening that I probably would not have taken otherwise.

For most of my life, I often got what I wanted through positivity, optimism, effort and hard work. I went to college and got two degrees. I had great relationships, friends, money, a job I loved in publishing in NYC, a sunny and bright one-bedroom apartment in Park Slope Brooklyn on a tree-lined street with brownstone buildings that was one block from Prospect Park – everything in my life was storybook picture perfect on the outside  - but I noticed that even though I was able to get what I wanted, I constantly living in a state of uncertainty, doubt and overwhelm.

I always felt like I could lose it all in any minute.

It was a constant feeling that I had to work hard to hold it together – the job, the relationship, the money, the great apartment. I felt like I couldn’t relax my guard or else it would all fall apart. And that’s exactly what did happen: It all fell apart. First the relationship, then the great apartment and a couple of years later, I lost the job and the money.

I grew up in a small town in New Hampshire with a love of books, a love of food, a love of animals, a love of people ... and a curiosity about the "invisible" realm.

  
In 2012, I got sick with flu-like symptoms and pain and that went on for years. It was eventually diagnosed as "an incurable autoimmune disease" which no treatment or method could cure. I tried everything. I spent over $20,000 trying various things to heal - traditional, conventional, alternative & spiritual. I read every book on healing. I worked hard at changing all my limiting beliefs to ideas of truth. I meditated, did positive affirmations and "acted as if" what I wanted was mine.

I felt that if I could just "change my mind" then the body would change, the world would change and my life would change.

I was super confused.

I was on a mission to crack the code on healing and failing completely.

But I couldn't give up. I knew happiness, health and healing was available to me and to everyone.

I told myself that I was already healed, whole and perfect.

I did "healthy" diets trying to heal (gluten free, vegetarian, vegan, clean, no processed, no packaged, no dairy, no sugar, all organic, local and fresh), took supplements and antibiotics, went to doctors and naturopaths, said affirmations.

Then I went the "I need do nothing" route, which was still me trying to heal. Trying to do nothing to heal is doing something. lol.

I was so desperate to emerge from chronic pain, conflict and physical symptoms.

I would have momentary relief at times, but I wasn't healing. I wasn't getting any better.

In October 2018, my husband Bill Free asked me if I could "welcome" the pain and physical symptoms.

This was a turning point for me.

Up until then I had been fighting, resisting, trying, doing. Inside, there was an inner battle and that was the real sickness! That's what needed healing.

Starting in 2018, I began to learn about Advaita Vedanta and non-duality. My first exposure to these ideas was Rupert Spira and Francis Lucille - and I was very excited by what I was reading and hearing! I started to learn that Consciousness and Awareness is our true nature.

Then I went directly to their teachers: Jean Klein and Atmananda Krishna Menon.

Those teachings are the basis of everything I teach now.

I resonated with these teachers because of how DOWN-TO-EARTH they are, using the body and mind to know the Self.

With the welcoming idea and non-duality teachings from Jean Klein and Atmananda Krishna Menon everything began to change in my life - healing occurred - and now I share this with others. .

There is no such thing as "healing yourself" because the self that wants healing isn't real.

But you can allow healing to occur.

Healing happens naturally when you stop fighting yourself.

I absolutely love A Course in Miracles and I still teach some of the ideas from it but I have mostly moved away from the Christian language contained within A Course in Miracles (Son, Son of God, Christ, He, Him, Holy Spirit) with the understanding that God = Consciousness = Awareness = our true Identity = Infinite Being = the changeless Self = Presence = I.

Healing is not something you "do'
Health and happiness is what you are.

Healing (and awakening!) occurs naturally when you stop fighting & resisting what is showing up in your life.

There was never a grand awakening for me, no bells or whistles.

Healing and awakening was a slow and gradual "process" that came about from the recognition that Awareness - pure Presence - is what we are, our shared identity.

And needs no healing!

The only thing that needs healing is the belief that you are a body, limited, weak, frail and powerless.

You are definitely not powerless!

My approach is down-to-earth, practical and simple because just saying "I am pure consciousness" and "I'm not a body" never worked for me. It was too abstract, too conceptual.

In my own healing, I needed to work with the mind and body -investigating and inquiring into inner thoughts, beliefs, emotions and habits - and slowly & gradually things began to change.

Therefore my approach works with the body and emotions. The way I teach about healing begin with the "false" self" - with the "you" that you believe is you - until the realization and recognition of consciousness as the Self as What You Are is your living reality